Still Fighting...

I have been thinking of writing all of my troubles in one post. But I guess this song by Gary V completely describes how I feel about everything that I am going through right now…

Warrior is a Child
Gary V

Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
I'm strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears

Chorus:
They don't know that I come running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
(Look up for His smile)
'Coz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
(Aahhh)

Unafraid because His arrow is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
I never face retreat, oh no
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at His feet

Chorus:
They don't know that I come running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
(Look up for His smile)
'Coz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
(Aahhh)

They don't know that I come running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
(Look up for His smile)
'Coz deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
(Aahhh)

I am completely happy with my life, but when more than one family member gets sick – I feel like nearing my end and I feel like giving up. But I believe that these trials are spices of life, my life would be boring without them.

So I am fighting, there’s still a warrior in here.

Papa: The Choir’s Number One Fan!

We sent Papa, my father in law, to his final resting place yesterday. I cried a lot, I just can’t hold my sadness over the thought that he will not be with us anymore. Though I found comfort knowing that wherever he is right now, he is in peace and is really resting from all the pain.

I belong to a choir, I and my brother in law Andy established seven years ago. Now the group is composed of family members and close friends. We gave papa the nightly prayers and melodious songs he used to enjoy. Papa used to attend our 9am Sunday mass and was keen on listening to us on our every Saturday song practices, he was our number fan. I can imagine papa’s very wide smiles while were singing his favorite songs of praise on his funeral mass. Andy plays the organ, while my tears were falling while singing with the rest of the group.

I have been talking to the group about my little projects. My first project is dressing the choir, I hope it become successful. Next in line would be additional musical instruments. I have been eyeing some musical instruments at shopwiki, they have wide arrays of musical instruments I’d like the group to have someday. I’d like the choir to decide on what instruments to add to further improve our music. I know we need some drum sets and flutes. I am still thinking on who would play the trumpets.

Remember PUMP up the JAM by TECHNOTRONIC?

This was one of the songs I listen to over and over again on the disc man my mother bought me on my eight birthday. The lyrics and the beat I entirely remember even after 20 years! Pump up the Jam! ;)

On a side note here’s a little info on Technotronic: Source

Technotronic was a studio-based Belgian music project formed by Jo Bogaert in 1988, who had already made his musical mark in the beginning of the 1980s as a part of a cover band and as a solo artist under various new beat projects, including The Acts of Madmen and Nux Nemo.

Together with Ya Kid K (born Manuela Barbara Kamosi Moaso Djogi, 1972, Kinshasa, DR Congo), he produced the hit single "Pump Up the Jam" which was originally an instrumental. An image for the act was later put together utilizing Zairian-born fashion model Felly Kilingi as its album/single cover art and supposed singer in the music video.

The song became an unexpected international smash, eventually hitting #2 on the USA's Hot 100 in late 1989/ 1990, the first-ever house record to break through to the pop mainstream.

Here's the video, i know you will recall PUMP UP THE JAM now with this! :)

Technotronic - Pump Up The Jam
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Your Smiling Face!

Whenever I see your smiling face

I have to smile myself
Because I love you (Yes, I do)
And when you give me that pretty little pout
It turns me inside out
There's something about you, baby (I don't know)

PS: Forgive me, i just can't stop singing this song whenever i see my daughter's precious smiles! Hahah.

It's June 12, Get free of yourselves of HATRED and FEARS. The happiest people don’t have the best of everything, They just make the best of everything that they have. Live simply, love generously, care deeply and speak kindly. (Thanks Ria for this one!)

Happy 111th Independence Day Filipinos!

This time i'll be sweeter

One petty arguments lead to another. And you want to talk about it, fix the situation, solve the problem and build a stronger relationship. Confrontational ka kasi, while i am not. I keep everything inside me, i dont want to talk! I wanted some space, and you interpret it as - separation.

Hiwalay kung hiwalay na parang kanta ni Beyonce,

To the left to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet, that's my stuff
Yes, if I bought it, baby, please don't touch (don't touch)

Akala ko tuloy magiging official theme song na ng buhay ko ang kanta ni Phil Collins..

Well I held on to let you go
And if you lost your love for me,
well you never let it show
There was no way to compromise
So now we’re living (living)
Separate lives


So glad im singing a different tune now, love song still and much kilig to the bone! Angela Bofill.. Pasok! :D

This time i'll be sweeter
our love will run deeper
i won't mess around
i won't let you let down
have faith in me
have faith in me

Wont mess around means we will talk, i will not be dumb. i will not be hard on you. i will not be as cold as ice.. i will try not to be a pasawife ever again and i will love you more than you love me!

Yay, i am back from the moon. Glad that i left there my old me. Anyong* to a new me! :)

*Anyong - A greeting from Korea

Life is a quest and love a quarrel

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby

I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm worthless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm shy but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chicken shit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between

Lyrics from; Bitch by Meredith Brooks and One Hand in my Pocket by Alanis Morissette

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When depressed, guilt-ridden, and so miserable with A LOT of things, it's music and hubby's cracked jokes and punchlines that keep me sane..

On misty sunsets of my life (like today!), expect to hear music of Alanis and Meredith playing over and over again on my cellphone and on my work area.. I found solace listening to them.. I dont know why!

Please remind me to be a kind wife to my hubby. Cause at the end of the day, it was always a nice music, hot embrace and passsionate kiss that would make me alright!

REALITY BITES

yobib and i are fond of conversing through emails. we smile and laugh recalling funny moments, we build dreams and make plans and oftentimes this is also the cause of our petty quarrels.

death as our very recent topic disappoints him. let's admit it., ready or not we will leave this earth, this is reality. but he felt bad knowing i am always thinking about it. of couse i always want pleasant topics like weddings, somebody giving birth, a new romance, funny surprises etc.. but cant we talk about death setting our emotions aside? baby naman.. does reality bites you? :)

anyhow, baby let me say my sorry through this..

i want to tell you that i appreciate you, the whole of you.. walang labis walang kulang..and i love you wholeheartedly inspite and despite of. let Us cherish every moment baby, every second counts! lets pray and hope that we will grow old together with lots of children, grandchildren and godchildren. and we will both recall our email conversations, petty quarrels, big arguments and sweeet reconciliations..

we will hold hands and in chorus we will sing this song..

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong
(You're still the one)

You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)

You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

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untimely death came to me after watching Balitang K last sunday. Full of regrets a sister wasnt able to tell her brother how much she loves him despite of him being the "black sheep of the family". most of us are so afraid to show and tell them how much we care and love our loved ones.. all appreciations of how good the person was, how they were loved, how he had touched others.. you will surely hear those at burials. sad thing.

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i admit i havent told my parents i love them a little 8 years already. that was my highschool days then. sigh. often i told them i love them through mail or by phone.. but telling it upfront? not yet but tonight i will!

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me and my younger brother talked on the phone last sunday, ending our conversation he told me he loves me. heheh. sure thing! he did something wrong kasi. nonetheless, that melts my heart. i know he loves me but its been so long time since he told me that.. and i love him too soo soo much.

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and so i would like to take this opportunity to tell all my family, my friends (old and new), officemates (old and new) and relatives (close and distant ones) that i love you guyz! and i care. carebears! :D

For my baby Yobib

ALL OF YOU
Julio Iglesias & Lea Salonga


Lea: Huuuu oooooo

Julio: Hindi ko pa nadarama ito
Tumitibok labis ang puso At ‘yong mga mata
Ay umaming ika’y gayun din

Lea: Ako’y gayun din
Kung nais mo, ikaw at ako’y
Magsasama sa buong magdamag
Dahil totoong nais ko’y
Di lang ang oras mo
Pati rin puso mo’y ibigay!

Julio and Lea: All of you, your body and soul
Every kind of love you can express
All the secret dreams you’ve never told

Lea: I want everything
And I’ll take nothing less

Julio and Lea: All of you habang may buhay
At lahat nang kayang i-alay
Nais kong lahat ay ibigay

Lea: L’hat ng t’wa at kalungkutan

Julio: Ngayon at kinabukasan

Lea: Haplos mo ay nais kong madama

Julio and Lea: At kung hindi man labis sinta
Nais kong tuklasin ang lahat

Julio: Nang kagandahan mo

Lea: Nang kagandahan mo

Julio and Lea: At pag kapiling ka sa dilim
Tibok ng puso nati’y damhin

Lea: Damdami’y h’wag mo nang pigilin

Julio: Lahat ng damdamin
Todo todo mo nang ibigay!

Julio and Lea: All of you, your body and soul
Every kind of love you can express
All the secret dreams you’ve never told

Lea: I want everything
And I’ll take nothing less

Julio and Lea: All of you habang may buhay
At lahat nang kayang i-alay
Nais kong lahat ay ibigay
Ngayon at kinabukasan
Ako ay iyong-iyo

You and Me vs the World

You and me against the world
Sometimes it feels like you and me against the world
When all the others turn their back and walk away
You can count on me to stay

Remember when the circus came to town
And you were frightened by the clown?
Wasn't it nice to be around someone that you knew?
Someone who was big and strong and looking out for

You and me against the world
Sometimes it feels like you and me against the world
And for all the times we've cried I always felt that
The odds were on our side

And when one of us is gone
And one of us is left to carry on
Then remembering will have to do
Our memories alone will get us through
Think about the days of me and you
Of you and me against the world

Remember when the circus came to town
And you were frightened by the clown?
Wasn't it nice to be around someone that you knew?
Someone who was big and strong and looking out for

You and me against the world
Sometimes it feels like you and me against the world
And for all the times we've cried I always felt that
The odds were on our side

And when one of us is gone
And one of us is left to carry on
Then remembering will have to do
Our memories alone will get us through
Think about the days of me and you
Of you and me against the world
You and me against the world
You and me against the world

i love you, goodbye.

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But honey that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, honey that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand
I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you
Honey it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Honey, its never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye