What's on your desktop?

They say your desktop says who you are or what kind of person you are, so what's on your desktop? Mine is..

P50.00 Bill

The latest forwarded email in my inbox that i think is worthy to blog, hope we'll all be reminded of our value cause sometimes we tend forget. Appreciate who we are! Scars, warts, bruises and all. :)


A well-known speaker started off his seminar by: holding up a P50.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this P50. bill?"

Hands started going up. He said, "I am going to give this P50 to one of you but first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple up the P50.00 bill.

He then asked, "Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air. Well, he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.

He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now, who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.

My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth P50.

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE...

Jackie Rice Look-alike?

Separated at birth? Jackie Rice and Feng, my Husband's youngest sister

Dahil desperadong may mapagkakitaan today naisipan kong i-send ang picture na 'to sa You've Got a Look-alike Contest ng Unang Hirit. Harinawang manalo.. Hihih

Wish granted, Thank you Lord!

Everything happens for a reason. Everything that is meant to happen will bound to happen no matter what. God put us in a place where we should be.

Just hours ago, Yobib and I are so into a panic. He was about to sign the job offer of company A but upon checking it, he declined. He sought reconsideration to company B and with this we both crossed our fingers. And when we are about to accept that it will be one of the many other failed application, hooray and yahooo.. he's got the job!

An officemate told me not just to cross my fingers, isama ko na raw pati paa. and i said sure, basta she will join me.. and after a few minutes the wish for how many months is finally coming true. She said God is really good. Yes God is good! Amen!

When I'm about to lose hope and so disappointed with life, God is making all things possible. I know God is making way for me and my family. I know all i have to do is to wait. I know I shouldnt be impatient.. I know God answers prayers. I know.

For the many blessings that has come my way, for the many wishes granted and for the specific gift today.. Thank you Lord!

Blog it! If..

My new golden rule on blogging:

Write all your thoughts, express how you feel, define your emotion, share all your experiences..

and when it's 'happy one' PUBLISH IT! BUT

if it's a 'sad one' SAVE IT TO DRAFTS! it wont hurt..

Because someone might be hurt or offended with the way i write things though i know its my sole opinion, feelings of someone matters to me and i dont want to hurt anybody.

and Hubby is editing me once in a while, it has to be that way! ;)

Miss Friendship, thanks!

i have a lot of friends - more than one plural na yan meaning hindi isa kaya marami rin, pero more often i choose them or they choose me, dapat talaga vice versa? kasi kung hindi, di naman ata friendship tawag dun (thinking that loud!).

Those who stays with me through thick and thin, marami sila! Those i spend time with before, mga kaklase nung college at katropa nung highschool, they are always there for me. ako lang ang hard to reach at this time, kasi nga (kasi nga, at dapat talaga ulitin?) i have to fetch yena at night kaya di na ko maka-gimik ng weekdays after work, at ang saturday at sunday ay ini-schedule na nameng mag asawa as family-bonding-time.

So ngayon na may mga lakad/gimik/dinner-chikahan/updating-season-of-tsismisan/night-outs/outings/ ay absent na palagi ang beauty ko. nakakasad kasi i miss my friendships, and they miss me too (This i presume!) hahah.

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Last friday may birthday-dinner-ang-tropang-college somewhere in MOA so super text ang friendship Beth ko who will be celebrating her birthday tomorrow.. kaya lang ang ending kong text to her was

Bru, sorry i cant, u kno nmn i hav to fetch yena kaya d pd pagabi. bawi ako sau next year, sama na ko lagi wid yena in tow. advance hafi berdey bru. love u!

and a reply of..

huwwwwwwwwwwwaaa

it saddens me. haaay. huwaaaaaaa indeed!

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Ikakasal na ang friendship ko way back from highschool ko na si Daryl aka 'Balikat" to her kamahalan on August. I asked her kung isa ako sa mga abay, sukat ba namang sabihing hindi. so eto ang sabi ko sa kanya..

sa church wedding namen ni Yobib isa ka sa mga abay, nakalista ka na. Kukunin pa kitang ninang ni Yena and then sa kasal mo wa ako? Tampo na me, we're friends for 14 long years.. and now what?

siyempre di talaga ganyan ang sinabi ko, same context laang.. hope she gets what i want her to do, at sana lang maenlighten ko siya! LOL

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Super touched ako sa comment ni Lolo Apol sa previous post ko, hindi niya lang alam kung gano niya pinagaan ang loob ko. Yeah, emote season lang talaga siguro ako, pero heart felt comments like that makes me back at my feet again.. Salamat talaga sa'yo Lo!

Thanks din kay ate sheng, kahit di pa kami nagkikita in person, in a way we became friends through the net and im thankful for people like her..

at thanks din sa hubby ko, na ilang buwan na ngayon na naglalaba ng mga damit namen.. hahah! LOL rolls in laugher :) Happy berdey sa'ting dalawa! and Congrats kasi magaling ka talaga maglaba kesa saken! :p

Thanks GOD! Thanks for my friends.. thanks for my husband Yobib.. thanks for my baby Yena.. Im happier now. Thank you.

Things arent always what they seem

"If you have faith, you just need to trust that every outcome is always to your advantage. You just might not know it until sometime later... Things aren't always what they seem"

Nabasa ko yan sa blog ni Rica Peralejo. I admire her, all her posts were about God and His goodness. Pero di ito post for her, sorry. I am feeling down today pero di rin yun ang gusto kong isulat ngayon. Lol.

On Leave ako kahapon, HIB Vaccine ni Yena. Its another P1200 for just one shot. Pero di rin yun ang gusto kong isalaysay ngayon. Emote ako. Vacation mode pa ko kanina until a friend talked to me thru YM. Marami siyang tanong, she meant no offense but im hurt. It will always be hurting i guess.

i know i just have to wait, i know time will come that everything will be ok. i just wish that when that time comes, i can still see and feel it. forgive me for being negative, but i am not seeing it happening in the near future. so for the meantime i will just have to pray for more faith and courage in dealing with it.

Happy Mother's Day!

First time ko pong magcelebrate ng Mother's Day on Sunday, kaya let me have this opportunity to feature the reason of my motherhood, My Yelena Hayden.

Every mother experience being a first time mom, maybe like me, OA din sila. Over Acting in a sense na minsan di ko na rin masabayan sarili ko. You see, i work from Monday to Friday 8-5. Every morning i have to drop by Yena to my mother's house and then fetch her every night before going home. It was a struggle at first to leave her. Sometime after giving birth i cried for just a thought of leaving her when returning for work. So imagine on my first day back to work.. it was a sad day. but now im ok. Mejo kaya ko na ang mahabang oras na wala sa tabi niya, but when its 5pm, you will see me running home, yun lang! heheh:)

I am so thankful for my boss and officemates, for being supportive of me during those times when i had to get out of a meeting or when i took long hours in the comfort room to have my "pumping session"... i wanted her to be breastfeed fully until she is 2 years old. but thats impossible.. she is into mixed feeding now, but i see to it that i breastfeed her nightly or when i'm at home.

Now, I cant have my bonding moment with highschool and college friends anymore. Not that im complaining. Id like to join them but i cant bring Yena. and i cant imagine going out without her if its not for work. You see im having a post partum depression maybe, sometimes i cried for just a thought of her..

I wanted every moment captured. Now, i am so addicted to taking pictures. I wanted to know details of her first firsts. See our blog for that. i hope i give justice remembering all those precious events that we will both look back when she's so matanong in everything that has happened in her growing up years.. Haaay i just cant wait for that time already..

Did i say Yena has a birthmark on her lower lips? We just noticed it a day after her birthday.. It was red and its getting redder all the more.. such a cutey!

No mom would not be proud of their child, i know. i just cant believe that i am this proud of my little one. I am so greatly honored to have been given this so precious gift, my God's gift. i must have been good in my past life to be blessed with her.. Now i am one of the million moms whose life has been moving around the welfare of her own flesh and blood. For that, a salute to all the moms in the world!

Happy mother's day to my mother, my sister, my mother-in-law, my sisters-in-law, my cousins, my aunts, colleagues and friends.. Congrats to all of us! :)

I married my enemy

after 15 months of the relationship, i got married last year to my enemy, yobib. at exactly 10am on October 26, 2007, we officially became husband and wife.

i wish to say that we were super best friends before, but we're not. in fact, i am so snub with him for my notions that he is super babaero and di ko siya kayang sabayan (this i thought!) and he was suplado towards me. we were not close to being friends actually until the time came that we got to know each other. i learned that he is a kind-hearted guy, very comic, with him there is no dull moments, i always find myself laughing if not giggling. he's an accountant like me and so there are times when we review notes on our past years as college students.. and doing stories like what ifs. what if he studied at PLM or what if we knew each other during our college days, blah blah.

we talked a lot. actually we laughed a lot. to those who know him well, they will agree with me when i i say that he is such a big clown. a very caring friend and such a wonderful person inside and out.. though i know he has his scars too, but i love it all. like a complete package.

dont let him get angry cause it will be hard. i remember a time when we had misunderstanding and he was so angry.. his face becoming red and his eyes like a fire.. he's so scary when he is angry.. some of my friends find him masunget, i guess it's always wrong timing. they seldom find him on his other extreme end.. he is extremely extremes. always at farthest end. he is sooo nice and kind to the other side and sooo terribly scary to the other.. i dont get it sometimes, but i am learning to love his being him.

our relationship paints a smile to those who know us very well and would raise an eyebrow to those who are still judging us. then, we hear words like, they will not make it! but look at us now, we are still on the beginning of our journey(hehe!) (-and it was hard, very difficult at times) but we're getting it through, i am thankful we are getting by and i'm embracing every single minute of it..

i love the idea of being with the man i hated then and whom im so much in love now. enemy then, lovers now.. building their dreams together and keeping their love alive.

im featured!

because i'm now a nanay, mommy, ina, inay, momsy, mamita, whatever you call it - yes, i am a new mother to a healthy bouncing baby girl and so i am one of the few featured mommy on our website! i'm proud! clap talaga ako nung una kong nakita.. thanks Eastern! ;)

one HOT mama!

Got a call from an officemate who happen to be updating our website today. She's asking for a picture of me and Yena and i excitedly ask why? She will be posting it on our website daw! and so the super busy me, ignore the work for a minute and search for a picture... and boila i forwarded her not just one but three! im such a proud hot momma really!

I tell her to just pick one for me! I cant wait to see that HOT item on the web of the telecommunications company that is 130 years old and counting!