light at the end of the tunnel

naalala ko na naman ang laging sinasabi ng previous boss ko everytime the company experiences a big problem, he says 'we will see light at the end of the tunnel'. naimagine ko, tren yun na matagal naglakbay sa ilalim ng tunnel at parating na sa maliwanag na istasyon.. akalain mong naisip ko yun? ang babaw ko alam ko. nakakaiyak. LOL

nung nagkasakit, naospital at naoperahan ang tatay ko pakiramdam ko, im the loneliest person in the whole world. bukod pa sa mataas ang bill ng ospital at doctors fee, mahal din ang maintenance ng gamot at pagkain niya everyday. being the bread winner of the family, di ko to kakakayanin.. i thought. pero asan na ba ako ngayon?

heto, im 3 years bound to chain of credit. opo. malaki ang utang ko sa paligid. ika nga ng friend ko, in money and in kind. name it! hihih. i still have the nuts to laugh. eh ala nga naman umiyak ako noh?

eh yun nga. anung bright side sa mga pangyayari lately sa buhay ko? let me name it..

una, nung naospital si tatay, yobib got the chance to "be close" to them.. ang importante makita nila at makilala ng lubusan si yobib. which will never happen pag sa bahay lang.. sniff. nung kelangan ng blood donor, yobib offered his precious blood. basta i yobib and i see it as a positive sign, magiging close na sila ng family ko! yahoo.

pangalawa, di ako naka attend ng sportsfest at team building namen sa batangas. ang sad kasi di ko nakabonding ang mga officemates ko pero on the positive side..eto? explain ko. muse ako ng finance team, so that means i have to wear the skimpiest and sexiest i could ever imagine, na di ko pa nagawa sa buong buhay ko.. so ayoko. at no choice ako dahil martial law at kelangan ko lng daw sumunod. at dahil nasa ospital ako, di ako nkarampa! yipeee! at sobrang physical daw ng sportsfest at team building and to think na by that time di ko pa alam na preggy ako- sobrang kitikiti ko pa naman- so malamang wala na akong pinagbubuntis ngayon. eh gusto ko na nga ng baby eh!! see? positive?

pangatlo, nakilala ko ang mga taong tunay na nagmamahal.. marami sila at forever ko silang itatatak sa puso ko.

a year that was

isang taon na mula ng naging 'kami" ni yobib. ang bilis ng panahon. i always tell him na akala ko di kami aabot sa ganito.. hindi sa ayaw ko or napilitan lang, i just still cant believe that after all the storms, heto kami ngayon holding each other tight each day and cant wait to cuddle each other after a day of work. our relationship has been sooo far from perfect and i can humbly say that we had survived many trials, pains and sorrows and still getting stronger to fight for the love we thought would never be where it is now. and i will always be thankful to the One great reason that keeps us together, to God, that has always been there guiding us to each step we take.

we hated each other before. his first impression of me was so simple. i didnt strike lighting nor get him off his knees. i dont look like his future. well neither do i to him. i will never forget how i despise him for being so playboy. we really hated each other and often ignore each other on friends gatherings.. but that was then.

now, its a very different story. i cannot imagine myself without him by myside anymore. i would like to say first impression doesnt last. can u imagine yobib doing ALL the household chores? cooking, cleaning, washing the laundry.. everything. i am the queen, the little princess.. and he's my soo handsome slave-king-knight in so shining armor.. i will never in my wildest dreams think he is caregiver (the best in town!). how he would take good care of me now. how sincere he is when he tells me i am the only one, which i - half of the time- believe him.. (half of the time he's kidding me and making me bola, i should know!) but i know deep he is true and i love him for being what he is. i sooo love the ways he love me..

i dont know why im writing this (i sound weird, heheh), i thought i just miss him every single minute.. gosh. im blushing. and because i am 12 weeks pregnant today with our baby, i just want to tell you little future daddy that i love you more and more each day..

and

HAPPY HAPPY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!

babae po AKO!

i will be a mother soon, and yobib a father too!
I cannot believe how overwhelming is this feeling..

I cannot wait to feel you with my bare hands,
I cannot wait to see how you will become
or how we will become as your parents..

but i know you will be who you are
you are the greatest thing that ever happen to me,

i love you forever my baby, my angel.