Some Good Things Never Last

Absence makes the Heart Grow fonder? True!

My first day of work was supposedly an exciting one but it turned out totally different! I felt deep loneliness, I expected worst things will happen in my life. Going to work everyday without her by my side is a big struggle and a deep misery for me. Almost two years of being together going to work, eating breakfast, lunch and snacks and going back home, maybe these are the reasons why I felt that. Excess food would be save for wifey so that she had something to eat while going back home. Except for rushing home after office, the rest turned out to be different. This time, we no longer exchange emails, no more flirty chats and naughty senseless phone calls. Because of the distance and low technologies of my new work.. we miss each other so much.

Days were longer and nights were shorter, and how i would like to stretch night time for an extension of our cuddling time. These last few nights were so emotional because I kept on complaining about how my work and the office was, little did she know that the main reason was I'm missing her a lot and I want to be with her all the time.

Last Friday, we and my new officemates, dined out a Cuba. Knowing that chicken wings is my wifey's favorite, I didn't eat my share, i imagined her face upon another surprise food.. i wanted to bring it home for her. I was excited to go home. Excitement became worries when I saw her sad face. I felt so sorry and disappointed seing her that way. I can't give what she wanted and for not being the man she wanted me to be. I was still smiling though, I didn't want her to feel the bitterness I was feeling right then. I understand why she wanted to sleep apart or sleeping backward rather than cuddling each other.

I know that there's no one left to blame but me, I should have listened to her. For all the heartaches and hardships I have given her, I am deeply sorry. I wish that I still have some lucky charm left for me to go back to my former company to make things run better and our lives BACK to normal again. Please help me GOD.