Life is too short to be miserable

I always like to please other people. I dont know why, its my nature maybe. I thought if I would please them, they would love me more. Kinda think that thought should be amended for a while. Or I need to change.. For myself? Or for them? Whatever.

It affects me when someone told me, why im this and im that. Im not that good, fair and considerate enough, et al.. Remarks like that really makes me upset.. F*ck!

Someone told me, "as long as youre happy, why bother on what they say about you. As long as youre not guilty and you didnt harm them coz youre just being yourself.." I say, right. "maganda ka kasi kaya sila ganyan?" me says, DUH?!!

It also appears to me, I am so weak at times. I always like to hear appreciation, where in the real sense some of those were insincere praises. I should know. I know!

Leaving me with not-so-good-comments make me sad, depressed and lonesome for a while (worst- a week or so!) im not that good in coping up. I end up being so miserable. I just want to hide, to breakaway. To get buried deep. To soar. To pack up and leave. To just be alone. To hibernate. To breathe my last breath.

Oh well. Its a so depressed-me right now. I dont want this. I hate this. As I said life is too short to be miserable. So I just leave them like that and see me like this. They dont know what it is like to be me, they have no idea- even a bit..

This is me. I just want to be like that and I want them to see me like this.

Damn, I am ME. Angal ka?

miss kita tarabusaw!

Ian's place @ San Pedro Laguna
September 24, 2006
Birthday / Despedida ni IAN







Miss the old times. so much!
One month na si ian sa Toronto. Naaalala ko pa ang despedida party niya. Kasabay ng birthday niya yun. Ang saya. Sobra. That day, sad na ko. Si ian, ilang taon naming di masisilayan? Just the thought scared me a lot. Haaay. He's my super great friend. Wala ata akong kaibigang guy na hihigit pa sa kanya. He blends well with my tropa. We can talk of anything and everything under the sun. Kahit anu atang sabihin ko sa taong yun, ayos lang. Pagagalitan ang bad niko, pupurihin ang cute niko, pasasayahin ang sad niko at higit sa lahat pakakainin ang "kuripot daw" na niko. Ilang beses na nga ba akong natreat ni ian sa mga "sozyng" kainan dito sa makati? I cant count. iIang pahaging lang.. ayan na kainan na! Sarap! heheh

Baket ko ba sinasabi to? di naman niya mababasa.. Well, walang imposible. Kahit mahal mag internet sa canada. Hope mabasa niya to. Eh nagpaparamdam lang po, lapit na pasko eh.. ooops! berdey ko pala muna.. (announcement?!)

Papa bear, victoria's secret lotion or cologne lang gusto ko ah! Yung Forbidden Fantasy po! Talamat! hehehe. Baet mo talaga. Labs yu tooo! LOL :)

Ngapala, hulaan kung nasan si papa bear ian tarabusaw.. hayun siya! kita mo yung unang picture? hindi pa yun!! yung pangalawa?.. uu yung nga! ung nakaputingmay salamin??! siya nga!! beri gud children! hehehe.

LIVE A LIFE THAT MATTERS

Ready or not,
Someday it will all come to an end.

There will be no more sunrise,
no minutes, hours or days..

All the things you collected,
whether treasured or forgotten,
will pass to someone else.

Your wealth,
fame and temporal power
will shrivel to irrelevance.

It will not matter what you owned
or what you were owed.

Your grudges, resentments, frustrations,
and jealousies will finally disappear.

So, too, your hopes, ambitions, plans
and to-do lists will expire.

The wins and losses
that once seemed so important
will fade away.

It wont matter where you came from,
or on what side of the track you lived,
at the end.

It wont matter whether you were beautiful or brilliant.

Even your gender and skin color will be irrelevant.

So what will matter?
How will the value of your day be measured?

What will matter is not what you bought,
but what you built;
not what you get,
but what you gave?

What will matter is not your success,
but your sigificance.

What will matter is not what you learned,
but what you taught.

What will matter is every act of integrity, compassion
couirage or sacrifice that enriched,
empowered or encouraged other
to emulate your example.

What will matter is not your competence,
but your character.

What will matter is not how many people you knew,
but how many will feel a lasting loss when you're gone.

What will matter is not your memories,
but the memories that live in those who loved you.

What will matter is how long you will be remembered,
by whom and for what.

Living a life that matters does not happen by accident.
Its not a matter of circumstance but of choice.

Choose to live a life that matters.

Author Michel Josephson

Coffee and Cigarettes

Michelle Featherstone

I gave up coffee and cigarettes
I hate to say it hasnt helped me yet
I thought my problems would just dissipate
And all my pain would be in yesterday

I poured my booze all down the kitchen drain
And watched my bad habits get flushed away
I thought that that would keep my head on straight
And all my pain would be in yesterday

But its true Im still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit, I must quit … you.

I thought that if I didnt go and play
The sadness would get bored and go away
I thought that if I didnt go astray
That all my pain would be in yesterday

But its true Im still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit, I must quit … you.

I sold my guitar and my piano
I thought that it was these that kept me low
I thought if only I could try and change
That all my pain would be in yesterday

But its true Im still blue
But I finally know what to do
I must quit, I must quit … You.
I must quit, I must quit … You.

NO RETURN or EXCHANGES

By: Zach Wood

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only
what is helpful for building other up according to their needs, that
it may benefit those who listen. (Ephesians 4:29)

We all have made bad choices in things we've bought. Some items,
after they've been opened, cannot be returned, but most things do
have a return policy on them. If you simply don't like it, have
changed your mind and want something else or if it's defective, you
can return or exchange for the desired item instead. You made a
choice, but you're able to take it back and have a different item in return.

Too bad our words can't be returned or exchanged for something we
would have preferred to say. We have all said things to friends,
family and others we love and care about that we regret saying. Once
the word is out of our mouths, that's it! No getting it back! The
words have already either built someone up or completely torn them
apart. We've all been the victim or have been the perpetrator and
it's no fun. When we're angry or resentful toward someone, we have
the burn inside to share some choice words we usually are not clearly
thinking about. There's a song by the Contemporary Christian Band,
Third Day, "Nothin' At All", which says that if you can't say
anything good then don't say anything at all. It's so tempting to
hurl words out when they come to our minds cause we want to state how we feel.

Now, I'm not saying that there's never a time to criticize or firmly
and lovingly confront and make known a problem that someone has
caused you. However, we are to think very carefully about our words
and ask God for the direction and wisdom in what to say. Have you
heard the saying, "The tongue is practically weightless, yet so few
can hold it"? This statement rings very true and we need to be
certain that the words coming from our mouths are either building
people up for the Kingdom or that they are lovingly and prayerfully
confronting and helping someone become a better follower of Jesus Christ.

I write this devotional as someone who is not always good with
words. I can get angry or frustrated and forget how much my words
can really pierce and forever scar another heart of my brothers and
sisters in Christ. Our words need to always be wholesome, whether
we're praising and affirming or whether we're confronting in loving criticism.

Remember, no refunds, returns or exchanges with our words. Once
they're out the mouth, they've done the damage or they've encouraged
and built someone up better. Which do you prefer to do? I pray that
you and I would both consider choice words which are beneficial and loving.

Shared by Joe Gatuslao
Bacolod City, Philippines