How can I live?!

It has been days without my internet connection at home. It was terrible. I felt lost already. I know it looks so petty but please allow me to let this all out.

Last night was hopeless. I called smartbro for 2 hours. I was able to talk to 2 customer service representatives for 2 minutes each. And the rest of the time my phone on speaker mode was just ringing, there was no answer. I was cranky already and then I realized on what internet connection is turning me into – a monster. I was crying while trying to check the connection. i was irritated to every noise my daughter made and i was not definitely myself.

Should I be a bitch because I don’t have a connection and ignore my daughter who was happily playing with her cousin? At that very minute I was still thinking of playing at toponlinecasinosforrealmoney.com. Still weighing things on whether to play money slots or play money roulette. I was so ashamed of myself. I am a bad mom.

So I turned off my laptop, forget about that damn connection and played with her. Just like those nights when I still don’t have my connection at home, we watched TV, I cooked and we ate together, we read her books, we played nonstop with her toys and made fun of each other. We slept at 12am tired and happy. I was back to my old self and I felt better. When smartbro pulls me down my daughter will always lift me up!