Always worried

Last year was a tough year for me, my family and yobib's family.

June 2007, my father who was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes underwent a surgical operation on his right leg. Almost a month of stay at the hospital and with relatives not supportive enough, it was a chaos i can now smile recalling. My family passed this test with flying colors, with my father recuperating now and my mother acting as his full time nurse.

October 2007, i was alone on my wedding day and disowned by my mother a couple of hours later.

November 2007, two days apart my mother and papa, yobib's father suffered stroke. My mother with milder attack than papa. It was another fight that made each family closer. Though papa suffered another stroke january this year, both of them are getting into recovery. They are both feeling better and stronger now.

All this happened while i was pregnant with Yena!

I once told my officemate who is pregnant now not to worry a thing, sometimes when we feel so down and lost we thought we are the most wretched creature on earth. But there are situations worser than ours. I am a great worrier i tell you, but my husband consistently taught me not to, worrying will not help.

Yesterday, my grandmother from maternal side who is almost 90 years old was dignosed that her heart is getting larger. She is too thin that getting blood pressure is a failure. She always has a fever.

After his quarterly checkup, my father was about to undergo five laboratory tests. He is getting a hard time to pee, when he feels urinating nothing is coming out or if there is a spot of blood would come out. The doctor said it might be signs of prostate cancer.

I worry and i think a lot. I am lost in deep thoughts. Though i know worrying leads to nothing i just cant stop it, i am always worried. Now, If its not too much to ask, please help me pray. Let this be another test of faith me and my family can pass through.

Thank you so much.