love thy neighbor!

this is my first time to complain about my neighbors (my co workers, boss etc.) on this blog. LOLs. i have so many complaints about anything and anyone in between but its just a passing. with all of this my baby always listens! but this time, im writing it down, i think it will help me ease some if not all of my bitchiness..

i am really contemplating on doing this post, afraid that they might read it sometime soon. but just to free me of these thoughts, here's my latest fave neighbors..

1. i am not liking sandy. (oppps! i am using code names guyz). reasons? i am not disclosing here!

2. i dont like willie's guts! oh! that man.. grrrr. just mere looking or bumping into him at the lobby freaks me. i am spoiling my day just the thought of seeing him.

3. i hate rolly. i saw in him a dirty old politician! ew.

as much as i am exerting effort to see the bright side of sandy, willie and rolly.. sadly i just cant find one. or i am not into finding them for the moment. i think i am my bitchy self lately!! and its been a a few weeks now.. gosh. i am not having the right vibes to go to work all the more. help me!

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my boss talked to me and said i looked like a raped victim today. i am worrying i told him. my parents and brother are travelling for vacation right now.. and as soon as i know that they arrive at aklan/ iloilo safely i will be my old self again. promise!

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me and baby got a very new blog now.. try clicking this datingmushroom and comment if you wish!
he said its not as good as the original one which i deleted long time ago! :) e hayaan mo na yun baby... we will make this blog as beautiful as the original!

REALITY BITES

yobib and i are fond of conversing through emails. we smile and laugh recalling funny moments, we build dreams and make plans and oftentimes this is also the cause of our petty quarrels.

death as our very recent topic disappoints him. let's admit it., ready or not we will leave this earth, this is reality. but he felt bad knowing i am always thinking about it. of couse i always want pleasant topics like weddings, somebody giving birth, a new romance, funny surprises etc.. but cant we talk about death setting our emotions aside? baby naman.. does reality bites you? :)

anyhow, baby let me say my sorry through this..

i want to tell you that i appreciate you, the whole of you.. walang labis walang kulang..and i love you wholeheartedly inspite and despite of. let Us cherish every moment baby, every second counts! lets pray and hope that we will grow old together with lots of children, grandchildren and godchildren. and we will both recall our email conversations, petty quarrels, big arguments and sweeet reconciliations..

we will hold hands and in chorus we will sing this song..

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong
(You're still the one)

You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)

You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'

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untimely death came to me after watching Balitang K last sunday. Full of regrets a sister wasnt able to tell her brother how much she loves him despite of him being the "black sheep of the family". most of us are so afraid to show and tell them how much we care and love our loved ones.. all appreciations of how good the person was, how they were loved, how he had touched others.. you will surely hear those at burials. sad thing.

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i admit i havent told my parents i love them a little 8 years already. that was my highschool days then. sigh. often i told them i love them through mail or by phone.. but telling it upfront? not yet but tonight i will!

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me and my younger brother talked on the phone last sunday, ending our conversation he told me he loves me. heheh. sure thing! he did something wrong kasi. nonetheless, that melts my heart. i know he loves me but its been so long time since he told me that.. and i love him too soo soo much.

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and so i would like to take this opportunity to tell all my family, my friends (old and new), officemates (old and new) and relatives (close and distant ones) that i love you guyz! and i care. carebears! :D

yobab na daw ako

Niko is a fool..
when its hot she wants it cold,
when its cold she wants it hot,
always wanting what is not!!

yan ang laging paalala saken ng good friend kong si dhang, bagay tlga yan saken! swaks kung baga. ako tlaga ay isang FOOL! pag totayap (payatot!) ako, gusto kong maging yobab (baboy!), pag nagiging yobab gusto kong bumalik sa pagka totayap!! grrrrrr. so FOOL! so ME!

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before graduation nung college, yobab ako. sobra! ayokong tinitingnan ang transcript of records ko dahil nakikita ko ang mala'monay kong pes. ewan ba, pag palapad na ang muka ko, senyales yun ng unti unting pagkayobab ko. muka ko tlga ang una sa lahat ay lumalapad at tumatabang parang palanggana. ok lang saken ang maging malusog, long time wish yun ng family ko higit pa sa sarili ko, pero baket ganun?? muka ko lang ata ang lumalapad!!! :(

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kahapon pauwe nagsumbong ako sa text kay ina aka daryl my friend..

'bru, away ko yobib.. lagi nia kc ako inaasar ng yobab.. huhuhuh. palibhasa im so taba na. huhuh. it hurts! di ko xa bati! huhuhu.'

at ang napakagaling niyang sagot..

'totoo namang yobab ka na! pero in fairness bagay saung maging yobab!' waaaaaaaah.

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well, anyways, tumaba o pumayat. maging monay o kawayan. what the heck! its all in the mind! hmp. LOL

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If he's not calling you, it's because you are not on his mind.

WAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!! HUHUHUH

Araw ni Iya!

(Niko, Iya and Aya)

(L-R; Niko, Iya and Aya; Standing: Lui)

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY to my cutest niece, Iya! Love yah love yah ssooo soooo much! mwaaaaah

World Pyro Olympics Photos

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Di ko man aktwal na nasaksihan, heto at makikifeel na ko sa makulay na paligsahan. Parang may kasing kulay kasi ang mga kuhang eto at di ko sasabihin na kasing kulay to ng buhay ko ha! Ewan ba at type ko tong ipost sa blog ko! Danda kasi eh! Kasing danda koh! AHEM :D

Sana next year, mapanood ko na 'to! (it's a DATE sana!*hint hint hint!! *wink!!) LOL

I love the night life!

(L-R; Khimmy, Cleo, Johnny, Yobib, Niko, Lance and Daryl @ Uzziah Bar and Restaurant)

Naging libangan na namen ang magpunta ng baywalk at ciboney malate since november last year.. Kasama ang mga boardmates ni daryl na naging friends ko na rin, laman kmi ng baywalk every friday night, dahil sa mga gay comedian na feeling close friends na rin namen. First time ko na makita sila magperform este mang okray, parang wala ng bukas ang pagtawa ko. Tuwang tuwa ako sa kanila. Di ako nagsasawang manood, ang gaan ng feeling doon, parang wala akong problema.

Lately napadpad naman kami sa Uzziah, sa may Remedios Circle at malapit lang din sa Ciboney. Andun din si fafa Lance na "mala-richard-gutierrez" na gurl type, na type na type namen. hehehhe. kasama na rin ang mga gay comedians na malulufet magpatawa.. da best ang night out namen! parang walang pasok sa opisina kinabukasan.. heheh. Malakas ang loob ni baby at Johnny na maki sing-along.. at eto ang ebidensya ng tuluyang pagkawala ng kanilang iniingatang puri! yaiks! heheheh.

By the way, two consecutive tuesdays kaming pumunta ng Uzziah para sa celebration ng isang buwan (..and counting) na pag iibigan nina Cleo & Johhny at Daryl & Jason..

Para sa matagal, masaya, mapanlasing, mapang-okray at mabungang pag-iibigan. . . . CHEERS!

For my baby Yobib

ALL OF YOU
Julio Iglesias & Lea Salonga


Lea: Huuuu oooooo

Julio: Hindi ko pa nadarama ito
Tumitibok labis ang puso At ‘yong mga mata
Ay umaming ika’y gayun din

Lea: Ako’y gayun din
Kung nais mo, ikaw at ako’y
Magsasama sa buong magdamag
Dahil totoong nais ko’y
Di lang ang oras mo
Pati rin puso mo’y ibigay!

Julio and Lea: All of you, your body and soul
Every kind of love you can express
All the secret dreams you’ve never told

Lea: I want everything
And I’ll take nothing less

Julio and Lea: All of you habang may buhay
At lahat nang kayang i-alay
Nais kong lahat ay ibigay

Lea: L’hat ng t’wa at kalungkutan

Julio: Ngayon at kinabukasan

Lea: Haplos mo ay nais kong madama

Julio and Lea: At kung hindi man labis sinta
Nais kong tuklasin ang lahat

Julio: Nang kagandahan mo

Lea: Nang kagandahan mo

Julio and Lea: At pag kapiling ka sa dilim
Tibok ng puso nati’y damhin

Lea: Damdami’y h’wag mo nang pigilin

Julio: Lahat ng damdamin
Todo todo mo nang ibigay!

Julio and Lea: All of you, your body and soul
Every kind of love you can express
All the secret dreams you’ve never told

Lea: I want everything
And I’ll take nothing less

Julio and Lea: All of you habang may buhay
At lahat nang kayang i-alay
Nais kong lahat ay ibigay
Ngayon at kinabukasan
Ako ay iyong-iyo

and now, i'm smiling..

i'm hurting.

i'm crying. i'm hurting. my heart's aching. my eyes sore. my soul's screaming. i am out of my mind, wishing the yearning i always do when hurting.

why do you like to dig all the things you know would hurt me. things that would tore me apart. things i so long buried in my past. things i hated most to recall. things i so hated remembering. things that made me worst. things that made me lost. things that murdered my soul. things that made me so unworthy to be loved by anyone.

it is only now that i realize. do u really want me happy? or you want me hurt?

i just wish you could do it gently.. i already forgot how to cry, until today.

I MAY BE HAUNTED BY MY PAST BUT I AM NOT THE SAME PERSON FOREVER. EVERYTHING CHANGES.

My name is I AM.

Got this nice poem while reading my latest fave book, Waking On - The Best of Women on the Journey, and it fits me so well. Being the worrier that i am, this poem is my must read.

I was regretting the past and fearing the future.
Suddenly my Lord was speaking: "My name is I AM."
He paused. I waited. He continued.

"When you live in the past, with its mistakes and regrets, it is hard.
I am not there.
My name is not I was.

When you live in the future, with its problems and fears, it is hard.
I am not there.
My name is not I will be.

When you live in this moment it is not hard. I am here.
My name is I AM."

-Helen Mallicoat

Life is a cup to be filled not drained

Still not so busy day for me here at office. Exercising my nearing-to-dullness-mind, i created a list of my New Year's Resolution. May ganun pa??!! Wala ng pakialamanan, kanya kanyang trip to eh! kesa naman magpaka idle ako today, why not make this day somehow worthwhile! :D

So here's my list:

1. LOVE - is a many splendor things! naks! heheheh. just like to divide it to three + many more..

first, to my family. wala nang sasaya pa na makasama sila 24/7 but i have to stay this way for a while (habang sariwa pa ang sugat. yaiks!).. more quality time with them, pampering them to the best that i "can provide" and loving them unconditionally as always.

second, to my friends. Old and New. That i may spend MORE time with them.. hopefully, if our schedules permit, i so like to have more sleep-overs and never ending chika til dawn with them.. but less night outs for me too!

third, to my baby- Yobib. My now and my Day after Tomorrow! Naks to the highest level! We have a not so good start, but we're working hard on making it smooth. We may both finally conclude that this is finally it! That no matter what people say, we can still hold on to our promises and keep the love in our hearts alive, Forever and Ever!

2. SAVE. Just like to keep it short and simple.. Stop collecting Cosmopolitan Magazines, No to panic buying and compulsive shopping! That's it!

3. WORK. HARDER! It says it all. :)

4. TRAVEL. Go places i've never been to. Puerto Galera with my baby.. Or where my baby hasnt been to, like Baguio and Boracay.. Sounds romantic huh?! I love it! and "sama sa akyat with SOM Mountaineering Club!" Nature trip! :) yummm. amoy gastos nga lang! hehehe. Depende to pag nasunod ko si list number 2 ko! LOL

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So hayan.. Masunod ko nawa ang apat na to. Pray for me. Please help me God.
Oppppps! Time to follow list number 3! Ciao!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!